I am 17% Idiot.
I am not annoying at all. In fact most people come to me for advice. Of course they annoy the hell out of me. But what can I do? I am smarter than most people.
Something i've always known
01:56 p.m. Sunday, February 19, 2006
im backkkkk
its been a long time. last time i was here i was brokenhearted but i got over that quickly and moved on. im in my own place and workin hard to take care of my babygirl. my ex Rob came back and is with me again. we're much better here than we were in schenectady. life is pretty good.
10:27 a.m. Sunday, September 18, 2005
life
so me and my ex jason got back together for 2 wonderful months and then all of a sudden on monday he decides its over. i dont understand how or why he did this to me. i feel like my whole heart has been ripped out. i can't eat or sleep and im breakin down in tears all day. when i spoke to him he acted like he didn't even care how badly he hurt me. he called me his best friend so i don't get how he could just drop me like i meant nothin to him. i don't know why im writing all this cuz im not sure if i want him to know how deeply im hurt. at this point im not sure i he cares. i feel used and discarded. i feel sick , i can physically feel this hurt. i just wanna go somewhere dark and never come out but i can't cuz i have a child to raise. she's the only reason i get up..the only thing that makes me smile. i've never been this heartbroken. he said we were gonna get married and have kids and he threw it all away to go back to a tramp that slept with someone else while he was in the next room. he'll be miserable with er just so he can be a "family". well..fuck him , i hope he's unhappy forever. i hope she hurts him the way he's hurt me.
01:01 a.m. Wednesday, June 29, 2005
it's been a long time
well well well where have i been???? i've been in my new home in schenectady ny without a comp. . i've been doing the stay at home mommy thing with my 15 month old daughter. it's amazing how fast time goes and how much she's developed in such a short amount of time. she's a real little person with her own little personality and her own likes and dislikes , all of this developed in only a year. she's so much like me and her father that it's funny. she's gonna be so snotty and concieted like us , but it's ok cuz she has reason to be. she's fuckin gorgeous!!! i'll have pics of her soon.
12:18 p.m. Friday, March 25, 2005
ooooo thought i dropped off the planet huh
well...i'm back and yes i had my baby. she was born on dec. 21 2003. she was 7lbs 13oz. and 21 1/2 in. long. she's 3 months old now and so beautiful. when i get all my shit together i'm gonna make a layout feat. her. ooooo...i have drama but i don't feel like typin about it right now ..maybe some other day.
04:42 p.m. Wednesday, March 31, 2004
Whoa...guess who's back
Its been a really long time since i posted...bad me. My layout is actin funky and i dunno why and i don't feel like fixin it so its just gonna come down. I'm still pregnant and i'm havin a girl. Her name is Kaleigh Angelina and hopefully she will be born sooner than soon. I started a blog over at blogger.com dedicated just to her. If you wanna read it the addy is http://babykaleigh.blogspot.com .
When she is born i will be postin pics of her here in the baby pic gallery (not yet created). Well...enough posting for me .
Peas-n-onions
11:02 a.m. Wednesday, December 3, 2003
damn....it's been awhile
so i haven't posted in over a month but i'm here now !
i am having my baby and i'm sooooooooo way beyond excited and happy its sick. my belly is getting so big , i'm in love with it. i felt the baby moving for the first time the other day and i cried. hopefully i'll find out what i'm having soon(hoping for a boy). just wanted to update a lil.
ooooooh yea and my bestest guy christopher is having SEX again...i'm in shock , lol.
peas-n-onions my people
11:40 a.m. Saturday, August 2, 2003
blah blah
life sucks....yup it does. i'm not sure if i'm having this baby yet. shit is crazy right now but hopefully it'll all come together shortly. until then i'll stay stressed the fuck out and cranky.
06:00 p.m. Saturday, June 28, 2003
Jorai
It's been a year since you've been gone and i still can't believe it. It still hurts my heart that you're not here with us anymore. We all still miss you so much and we always will. I look at your picture on my wall everyday and wish you were alive and doin ya thing thing with us. I realize you're in a better place than all of us and hopefully one day we'll meet you there. I'm having a baby and if he's a boy he will have your name for a middle name.Hopefully he'll turn out to be as good a person as you were. Love you always and miss you forever.
R.I.P Jorai Brown
12:23 a.m. Friday, June 6, 2003
oh the misery
i am so miserable. i'm nauseas all day and all night long. it just never ends...it only gets either worse or a very lil bit better. time goes so slow, i just want it to be Dec. already. after this i will never get pregnant again...if i want more children i will gladly take my happy ass to adopt. in othr news..my former friend needs to get a big grip and stay the fuck out of my buisness. for someone who doesn't give a shit bout me my name is ALWAYS coming out of her mouth. every time i turn around someone is telling me that she's saying something bout me. i mean damn...i know my life is a lil interesting right now but how bout we go out and get our own and keep my name out ya dental. kthxbi.
12:48 a.m. Thursday, May 29, 2003
issues man issues
the one-sided convo i'm about to post was t my dear sweet Chris....fuckin man wasn't at his pc tho'.
XxShawtyBixx: ya big punky fish
XxShawtyBixx: rotten salmon cake
XxShawtyBixx: sticky crab cake
XxShawtyBixx: ya half a fish stick
XxShawtyBixx: ya slippery mudskipper
XxShawtyBixx: ya fat flounder
XxShawtyBixx: ok im done now...love you
11:51 p.m. Monday, May 12, 2003
ohhhhhh shit !
so its official...i took a preg. test and i am pregnant. yay for me...NOT. i'll deal and life will be peachy. i have to get a job. i'm gonna say in scool and work and shit. oh blah life is great. holla
08:38 p.m. Saturday, May 3, 2003
this is life
so its been awhile since i've posted 4real. a lot of shits been going on. my life is upside down. people are full of shit. my health gets worse everyday. i don't know whats wrong with me other than my diabetes but something else is happening in my body and it doesn't feel good. school is a lil stressful but not much. luckily i'm madd smart or i'd be fucked. home life is crazy cuz my family is going thru so much and i don't know how we'e gonna get thru it. i have nobody to talk to really cuz i don't trust anyone except one person and he's always busy now. i've heard that people are plotting shit on me...but Lord help them if they are. I wanna fight someone and i probably will. a certain guy sucks just cuz he's so sexy , lol. im out
11:28 p.m. Tuesday, April 29, 2003
Take it off !!
08:11 p.m. Sunday, April 27, 2003
shout me a holla dunn
i am soooo bored right now. i'm hoping that austin will call me when he gets to the sprint store and maybe come see me but right , doubt it'll happen. i'm supposed to chill with my boy tonight so my boredom shouldn't last all night , he's always entertaining. schools back in session and i'm not in the swing of things. i changed my reasearch topic today even though we had to hand in our preliminary bibliography today so i gave him what i had for the animal i was doing and he was like its ok i'll take these and give you a piece of chocolate tomorrow since you changed animals , lol. my professor is madd funny , i love him.
03:22 p.m. Wednesday, April 2, 2003
spring break
i'm on spring break right now. been havin fun so far , i didn't do much but i've done enough. i'm just glad i get to relax and sleep late. we went to the strip club the other night and had a good ass time. tomorrow night we're goin out to a club called 28 west to party it up. i had said that i wasn't gonna drink but i've already changed my mind. i'm gettin blitzed and im gonna grind on some cuties , lol.
im out...new layout , hope you enjoy.
10:10 p.m. Thursday, March 27, 2003
Makin babies
well omg...lemmme tell the world. my ex-fiance' is havin a baby and he's gonna like marry the girl or whateva. i think he's been a lil foolish. he shouldn't marry her just cuz she's pregnant. ha...and to think he said i'd be the one to have a baby first.
12:41 p.m. Saturday, March 15, 2003
it's been a long time
Sat. night i went to a club and had a good ass time. I haven't been out since new yrs. so i was feenin' for a party. I was lookin sexy as all hell fa'sho. There were some cuties and a certain young one with dreds was there...i swear that nigga is so fly i just wanna lick him , lol. I also met this really really nice guy there. So far this man is like exactly what i've always wanted and he dresses very nice. Hopefully he's 4real and not just an asshole in nice guy with a cool career disguise.
01:34 p.m. Monday, March 10, 2003
school on sat.
im sittin here in my vis. com. class and im bored as hell , im upset cuz i got my period this mornin so i feel ugh. my shit comes like govt. aid..every month it never fails to come on the first of the month...wtf. i think i might be goin clubbin tonight ,i hope i do cuz i haven't been out since new years eve. i need some real fun cuz lately i've just been goin to school and stayin home goin to bed early.
i kinda like this new layout but i don't know how long it'll be up cuz i'm fickle. anyway..have a great day..im out.
10:47 a.m. Saturday, March 1, 2003
still with the drama
so here it is ...a new beginning ,out with the old shit and in with the new. of course as my life goes....the new shit is more drama. i am friendless(females friendless) right now for no real reason cuz i didn't do anything but nobody cared to find out they just dropped a nigga. but hey i will survive and be ooook. i still have my Chris...the sick bastard ,lol.